Goals in life?

Recently, I've been asking myself this question over and over....never coming up with an answer.

Past weeks, I've been thinking back on those days when I wasn't working.
--Waking up when the sun is way way high up there....
--Preparing BRUNCH everyday...hehe....
--Taking my own sweet time to brew my coffee and sipping it infront of TV & papers
(hey..i am a multi-tasking gal!!)
--Occassionally meeting up with my gal frens(stewardess / teachers...so lots of free time) to go Hi-tea or shopping when most people are in the office working.
--Going to the swimming pool in the afternoon for tanning and swimming and of coz...Gossipping..

But for the past one year, my lifestyle have changed...

--Waking up early to prepare for work
--Buy breakfast on my way to busstop
--make do with INSTANT coffee
--Could only meet up with frens afterwork...cant stay too late or it might eat into my limited sleeping hours
--Stopped my swimming and tanning sessions (resulting in weight gain..sighz)

enuff of whinning...hehe....back to the point

Goals in LIFE....
Seriously...I dun think i have any goals...I'm just happy to have enuff to eat, spend and LIVE....I just live each day as it comes....I'm not ambitious....maybe a teenie weenie bit...but it'll always die down...coz I still can't find a job that can motivate myself.

Sometime....I wish i would juz die the next day...so I dun have to repeat boring routines....

Some ppl may say get up and get out there do things u like!!....To be HONEST...to do things you like...U NEED PLENTY OF $$$$$......This is a practical world...NO $ NO DREAM...

Looking at my salary...I dun see myself able to do things I LIKE for another 20 yrs...

Will be going Bintan this evening...Hope the short getaway will clear my head coz there's a boring meeting scheduled on MONDAY...Hope I won't die in the meeting...